Healing from you
Was important me
Being alone and still with myself
Crying whenever I wanted
Smiling whenever I wanted
Doing whatever I wanted
Not feeling obligated to speak to anyone
It was all important
Because now I see examples of men
I can see a future with
Good men I would try for
And I don’t want to be half healed from you
Because when I pursue those good men
I want to give it my all
Because they’re end game
And you never were
I didn’t want to try for you
But I want to try for them
Because they’ll treat me right
So I want to treat them right
I don’t ever want to think of you again
I don’t want to ever see you again
And I’m getting there
To the healed
To the I don’t care
To the freedom of being ready to start over
Because those good men out there
They’re worth it
And you weren’t
Because you took pieces of me just to break them
And they rebuilt pieces of me
Without even knowing they were rebuilding them
With you I felt ashamed of myself
You were proud of me
For all the things I hated about myself
I wasn’t even a person with you
And you didn’t care or notice
Because I wasn’t anything
And you weren’t anything
We were just nothingness in the same bed
Nothingness that didn’t even want to be in the same bed
And now I get to never see you again
And I am getting to the point
Where that makes me so happy